I want my blog to be a happy place. A place where people can visit and leave with a smile. I wasn’t going to comment on the horrific news going on in Newtown, Connecticut because I want this blog to be a positive escape for readers…and for myself. I had plans to post some running tips tonight and continue blogging as usual, but that just feels insincere and empty because that isn’t where my heart is tonight. As I sit on my back porch right now, my thoughts are consumed with those whose lives will never again be the same because of what they lost on Friday morning.
My thoughts are consumed with the parents who now have an extra room in their house filled with toys, books and memories that are too fresh, but somehow too far away. Parents who must retrieve those hidden Christmas presents that they no longer need to wrap. Parents who are mourning in a house that is eerily quiet. Parents who must purchase unbearably small coffins and go against the laws of nature and bury their baby this week.
My heart breaks for the children who are wondering when their sibling and favorite play mate is coming home. For the children who will now enter the doors of their classroom with trepidation and anxiety. For the children who experienced a level of fear that no child – or human – should ever have to endure.
My heart in inspired by the heroic teachers and faculty who lost their lives in an attempt to save their students. My mom is a teacher and I cannot help but think she would have been one of the fallen heroes that purposefully came between danger and an innocent child.
I wasn’t going to comment on this tragedy because I honestly have no words. There isn’t one thing I can say that will bring those sweet babies back to life or lessen the anguish and agony of those grieving the loss of their loved ones tonight. However, I still felt compelled to write this post with tears in my eyes and knots in my stomach because the people in Newtown have been weighing heavily on my heart.
The words I have seem cheap compared to the value of what was lost, but I offer what I can and that is my thoughts, prayers and deepest sympathies to the victims of this tragedy.